AXI-PEDIA

Sepi tanpa cinta

2010-06-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

Apakan daya jika kasihku tidak kau menghargai
Apakan daya aku hanya menumpang di sudut hati
Tiba masanya terpaksa ku membawa diri
Aku menyedari siapa diriku hanya sementara...

Apakan daya percintaanku ini separuh jalan
Hidup seperti sampan hanyut di dalam lautan sepi
Terumbang-ambing ku dipukul ombak yang tinggi
Lemasnya aku hingga sesaknya nafasku menanggung rindu

Sampainya hatimu meninggalkan ku sendiri
Tanpa kasih sayang mengapa kau mungkiri
Segala janjimu dulu
Untuk hidup bersamaku
Sungguh pilu di hatiku

Kurasa sepi tanpa cintamu
Bagai malam tiada cahaya
Apalah dayaku jika orang tak sudi
Lebih baik aku pergi

Hanya pada Tuhan aku berserah
Moga diriku kecap bahagia
Apalah dayaku orang tak sudi
Lebih baik aku pergi

Warming up

2010-05-22T11:42:00.001+08:00

Hai cinta dulu-dulu
Cinta malu-malu
Cinta dulu-dulu
Memang susah nak bertemu

Bila sudah dapat bertemu
Nak cakap apapun tak tahu
Tegak berdiri tersipu-sipu
Seram sejuk kaku membisu

Sejak kecil sudah diasuh
Pantang larang dipegang teguh
Mulia sungguh cinta dulu
Adat resam budaya Melayu

Alah cinta zaman sekarang
Sudah terlupa pantang larang
Cinta zaman sekarang
Di khalayak ramai dia pegang-pegang

Kalau ditegur dia meradang
Macam harimau nak menerkam
Maruah bangsa sudah terancam
Kerana perbuatan segelintir orang

Hidup penuh berpoya-poya
Kalau kahwin pun tak kekal lama
Bila dah dapat yang di idam
Habis manis sepah dibuang

Hai cinta dulu-dulu
Ikut nasihat ayah dan ibu
Cinta dulu-dulu
kalau nak kahwin bertanyalah dulu

Berisik-risk bertanya-tanya
Ayah dan ibu dan anak siapa
Bila sudah berumah tangga
Kekal hingga sampai ke tua

Cinta dulu cinta mulia
Ikut aturan budaya bangsa
Hidup mereka sungguh bahagia
Cangkul dan tanah memisahkannya

Blue Magik

2010-01-15T22:25:00.003+08:00

I came out with a my own campaign in order to curb the habit of over spending called

"20 days of no purchase"

so basically what I do is I wont be able to purchase anything online within 20 days and hope to get my saving increase maybe up to 10%. In order to keep me distracted is I will surf more on new scientific article and websites that offer creative thoughts :)

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In the mean time

one of these baby are back..which one you guess :)

Batman brought his own Laden

2010-01-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

There's a trend in social network. I experienced it myself. Updates your profile with cute or provocative pictures of yours. Not just that, couple it with erotically charged or sex innuendo updates on what's on your mind. Enough to keep all of my friends whom always known with their curiosity to leave a comments. I never put anything real or raw emotions on Facebook. period.

So here's another page I can ramble as much as I want or be as silent as the grave. Have you ever miss someone who is right in front of you? Thinking what's going to happen when you won't be seeing them again? Worried and wanting to know what they have been up to? Praying that God will always protect them till you see them again the next time? I did and it never occur to me before. I miss my dad. I don't have a strong with him coz although we live under same roof it's like we are in different continent. I realized my dad almost a decade old this year and I feel with my priority and "growing-up" stuff to do, I wish I could have spent more time with him. So kids,you don;t miss the water till the well runs dry so be thankful to what you have now and be nice to your parents.

Kasi skittt!!!

2009-12-28T09:26:00.000+08:00

Terkena buah kana

2009-12-25T10:46:00.001+08:00

2009- Duniawi

2010- Spiritual approach in progress :)

Guess what? I-AM-NOT-A-ROBOT !

2009-12-23T16:12:00.002+08:00

You've been acting awful tough lately
Smoking a lot of cigarettes lately
But inside, you're just a little baby
It's okay to say you've got a weak spot
You don't always have to be on top
Better to be hated than love, love, loved for what you're not

You're vulnerable, you're vulnerable
You are not a robot
You're loveable, so loveable
But you're just troubled

Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot
Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot

You've been hanging with the unloved kids
Who you never really liked and you never trusted
But you are so magnetic, you pick up all the pins
Never committing to anything
You don't pick up the phone when it ring, ring, rings
Don't be so pathetic, just open up and sing

I'm vulnerable, I'm vulnerable
I am not a robot
You're loveable, so loveable
But you're just troubled

Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot
Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot

Can you teach me how to feel real?
Can you turn my power on?
Well, let the drum beat drop

Guess what?
I AM NOT A ROBOT

Semua tak jalan daa

2009-12-18T18:10:00.001+08:00

Hate it, sick to my stomach every time I read events updates on FB. Because most of the time I can't go because of this stupid curfew. And most of all sebab takda kawan. Now I realized the only kawan I have is him and he's so far away at seberang :(

Poison II

2009-12-16T09:28:00.000+08:00

ecstacy, coke
You say its love, it is poison
Schools where I learned they should be burned, it is poison
Physicians prescripting us medicine which is poison
Doctors injecting our infants with the poison
Religion misoverstood is poison

[Verse 1]
Niggas up in my hood be getting shot giving poison
In hospitals, shots rittle the block
Little children and elderly women run for their lives
Drizzling rain come out the sky every time somebody dies,
Must be out my fucking mind, what is this, the hundreth time?
Sending flowers to funerals, reading rest in peace
You know the usual, death comes in threes
Life is short is what some nigga said
Not if you measure life by how one lives and what he did
Its funny how these black killer companies is making money off us
Fast food, ?? solar skull and bone crossers

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
Sisters up in my hood trying to do good given choices
When pregnant drop out of school or have abortions
Stop working hoping that they find a man that will support them
Up late night on they mothers cordless, thinking a perm or
Bleaching cream will make better when they gorgeous
White girls tanning, lypo suction
Fake titties are implanted, fake lips thats life destruction
Lightskin women, bi-racial hateful toward themselves
Denying even they blood
I don't judge Tiger Woods but I overstand the mental poison
Thats even worser than drugs

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
Radio and TV poison, white Jesus poison
And any thoughts of taking me down is poison
Who want beef now, my heat shell annoyed them, plaow

[Talking]
Never to worry, all the wrong doers got it coming back to em
A thousand times over
Every dog has its day and everything flips around
Even the most greatest nation in the world has it coming back to em
Everybody reaps what they souls thats how it goes
Innocent lives will be taken, it may get worse but we'll get through it
Yall be strong

[Verse 4]
The China-men built the railroad
The Indians saved the Pilgrim
And in return the Pilgrim killed em
They call it it Thanksgiving, I call your holiday hellday
Cause I'm from poverty, neglected by the wealthy
Me and my niggas share gifts every day like Christmas
Slay bitches and party everyday like this is the last
I'm with my heckles connecting and we hitting the lad
This is my level, fuck if it get you mad
It's all poison, all of my words to enemies it is poison
Rappers only talk about ki's, its all poison
How could you call yourself emcees you ain't poison
Think about the kids you mislead with the poison
And any thoughts of taking me down is all poison
Who want beef now, my heat shell annoyed them, plaow

[Hook]
What goes around comes around my nigga
And what goes up it must come down my nigga
The soldiers found below the ground my nigga
Just hold it down we older now my nigga
What goes around comes around my nigga
And what goes up it must come down my nigga
The soldiers found below the ground my nigga
Just hold it down we older now my nigga

[Verse 5]
This nigga Ike with the Iverson jersey
Light skin with herpees
Fuckin' sisters in Harlem, Brooklyn and D.C.
This is the problem cause he never tell em he got it
From letting fags suck him off Rikers Island in nine-three
Drives in Benz, hangs in all the parties
All the concerts, backstage where the stars be
Rocking their shirts in bitches faces like clockwork
Whats your name, where you from, chain blinging
Thinking girls everywheres dumb, taking powder ruining their lives
So they could never have babies, and they could never be wives
He never used a condom, give him head he got ya
Met the wrong bitch and now he dead from the monster AIDs
I contemplate, believing in karma
Those on top could just break and wont be eating tomorrow
I know some bitches who be sleeping on niggas dreams
They leave when they nigga blow she the first bitch on her knees
Knowing dudes thats neglecting their seeds
Instead of taking care of em they spending money on trees
I pray for you deadbeat daddies
Cause when them kids get grown its too late for you
Now you old and you getting shitted on
Its all scientific, mystic, you know the Earth and the stars
Don't hesitate to say you heard it from Nas
What is destined shall be
George Bush killer til George Bush kills me

Much blessings be healthy, remember

Poison

2009-12-16T09:17:00.002+08:00

Roadkill is disturbing and heart breaking for animal lover. I saw a burst of gastro flesh at the side of the road. I can tell it was a great lost as the roadkill involved a fjungle cat/sorta like bangle. This animal supposed to be protected but somehow I don't know how it could go out and go on the road.

For those using DUKE highway ,you'll realized a guy under the bridge who did nothing but staring blankly at the road. I hope he did not cross the road at any time because the cars there are at crazy speed. When talking bout mashed potato if he did. I observed him everyday (not like for long time,but take a look at him everytime I passed by). If the day was bright, he'll just stand there and stare at the road. Sometimes when I passed by he'll be looking at soda's container. yesterday he was asleep because it was raining. Better don't look more than 1 minutes coz might realized HE WON'T BE WEARING ANY PANTS,who knew?:P

I'm old school

2009-12-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

This guy sucks at singing but everytime listening to this track I can picture my self making out with him. Yaw-so-sexy!

Cause I'm, just Marshall Mathers (Marshall Mathers)
I'm not a wrestler guy,
I'll knock you out if you talk about me (you talk about me)
Come and see me on the streets alone
if you assholes doubt me (assholes doubt me)
And if you wanna run your mouth
then come take your best shot at me (your best shot at me)

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But I'm into that pretty round brown type of guy hehe :P

Marabahaya

2009-12-10T13:48:00.004+08:00

Their version

Our (BLOG) version

HEHEHEHEHEHE SIAPA CEPAT DIA DAPAT!

Drama tanpa skrip

2009-12-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

I don;t like commotion. Those who with me everyday know that I don't have much to say. So I hope people will understand that I like to be left alone doing my own thang. However here's the story I wanna share with you last week when I was at Carrefour shopping for groceries. It was after working hours when all of your perfume had faded away,your lips are dull and your face looks like you could stumble and fall asleep anytime. Living in the big city is exhausting because of the traffic and stressful to be mentioned. So after paying for all the stuff that I bought I made way to the escalator and was approached by a promoter.

Promoter(P): Kak amek la voucher ni free
Me: *smile and walk away*
P: Kak amek la tak payah bayar
Me: Sokay tak minat
P: Ala takkan barang free pun taknak
Me: *Raised voice but not everybody can hear but LOUD enough for the fucking promoter to hear* If I'm not interested what are you gonna do?
P: Ekeleh..*turned around*Pundek
Me: Turned around looking at him KAU LA PUNDEK*AND BLAH*

Lesson is, don't mess with the customer and don;t be such a pusher! If we have time we'll look at your fucking expensive stuff that is not environmental friendly. If you insisted why don't you go get a new job that whatever you say make people wanna buy it instantly,which I don't know what at the moment I'm typing this. Seriously I don't wanna caused a scene but most of the time when I'm tired and hungry I get grumpy and NO YOU DON'T WANNA SEE ME ANGRY!

Sambung cerita semalam

2009-12-01T21:22:00.004+08:00

So that lil fella back and he did nothing but sleeping and eat like haven't eat for a week. Dr cabut satu gigi and did alter the fangs a bit to make it shorter. Although they were puzzled at first on why the gum bleed profusely they had to gave it a second shot. Dr said because of his small size ,the growth hormone diffuse into the teeth instead (something like that although they are not very sure on why the fangs grow few cm) Poor kid! But I'm glad everything alright although I missed chasing him around the house(and I thought I'm gonna raise a Siberian tiger instead). He's still tired and fening-fening with the bius given before.

MALAS NAK STUDY immunology!

Holidays/(Books)/Fun

2009-11-30T20:17:00.004+08:00

Knowledge and experience always gets in between fun and enjoyment we had,weather we realize it or not. I used to enjoy reading story books until one day I drifted apart from that habit I don't know why or how. But this holiday I;m on a mission to grasp back that habit and stick to it.

Today one of my cat is admitted due to tartar build up and affecting his gum and causing him to lose appetite. The vet said he will be a good candidate for the dentist to study tartar in animals. Hope everything will be OK tomorrow, we miss you already Blackie.

Vegetative state in more than 20 years

2009-11-28T11:57:00.002+08:00

How would you feel if you are claimed to be coma by the doctors but you we were not and you live in the total powerlessness for 2 decades hearing,knowing but you could do nothing bout it?

Steven Laureys: How I know 'coma man' is conscious

12:31 27 November 2009 by Celeste Biever
For similar stories, visit the The Human Brain Topic Guide

"Powerlessness. Utter powerlessness. At first I was angry, then I learned to live with it."

These are reportedly the words of Belgian man Rom Houben, believed for over 20 years to be in a vegetative state. Houben drew the attention of the global media this week when it emerged that he may have been conscious the whole time. Videos appeared of him typing his thoughts into a touch screen; he was even reported to be writing a book about his experiences.

Then doubts surfaced as to whether Houben really was typing, because his finger is guided by an aide. Steven Laureys of University of Liège in Belgium, who first diagnosed Houben as being conscious in 2006, told New Scientist how he knows he was right – and showed his anger at the speculation over the typing.

From the online videos, it looks as if when Rom Houben types, his eyes are closed, he types surprisingly quickly and that his hand is guided by an aide. Can we be sure the words attributed to him are really his?

What is happening now is very regrettable. I feel sorry for Rom and about what some people have written on the net. He knows what people are saying, and one can only try to imagine what he has already been through. He has gone from being ignored for many years and considered vegetative to being recognised as conscious. And now he is again being treated as if "it is impossible, he cannot be a cognitive being". Should I respond to that? I don't want to.

I accept some people may have been insensitive, but could it be possible that he isn't really communicating through the finger-guided touch screen?

I am a scientist, I am a sceptic and I will not accept any communication device if it is not properly tested. But I am not the one who made him communicate with the touch screen, I was just there to help him get rid of the diagnosis of vegetative state. And I don't think one can say, based on videos on the internet, something meaningful about the use of the touch screen.

Did you ever communicate with him in any other way?

He has undergone a very extensive medical and neurological assessment – but as his physician I cannot tell you more. I am in a difficult position: do you want me to put his medical record on the internet, or show the videos we made for his assessment? I don't think you would like it if I put results of your IQ test on the internet.

Can you say what makes you so sure he is conscious?

When I first saw Rom three years ago, he had been diagnosed as being in a vegetative state. We used the Coma Recovery Scale – Revised (PDF), which is a bedside behavioural assessment done in a very standardised way, and which you do repeatedly so as not to miss any signs of consciousness. And he showed minimal signs of consciousness. So we didn't even need fancy scanning methods to change the diagnosis. Then he had a brain scan – and we saw near-normal brain function.

What kind of a brain scan did you do?

He had many scans – but I don't want to go into this. We can limit ourselves to one brain scan, a PET scan, which is very straightforward. It measures the brain energy used by injecting radioactively labelled glucose.

How did this indicate he was conscious – I thought we didn't yet have a signature of consciousness?

You are right, we don't have the neural correlate of consciousness. However, there is a whole literature on the brain's metabolic activity in the vegetative state and on its activity when it is functioning normally.

I know I did not contribute any creativity by copying this article but what I shared with you hope it will stimulate the passive brain cells of ours :)

Rite de passage

2009-11-26T18:41:00.002+08:00

I have seen so many movies with prom night's scene in it. When I was in junior high, prom night is something we looked forward to. We imagine going there with someone special, having a ball and fun time and at the end we'll get the kiss that we have been waiting for. My prom night was on 2005 and I had fun with my girlfriends. Yes I imagined wild stuff and having the after party but it did not happen. I felt it's a waste of money with it's lame food and music and everyone was so malu-malu at that time,after all we all typical Asian who enjoyed talking behinds people back as they hit the dance floor. Just like any other events in our life, we all have prom night to attend,circumcision for the boys, 1st period for the girls, first porn dvd we watched ,1st weed, we smoked,1st monochrome phone we had ,1st album we bought ourselves using our own money, 1st boy band concert, 1st time going on the stage singing,reciting poem,story telling,you name it. This I believe the rite of passage as we enter the next chapter of life.

I remember going for kelas mengaji everyday after 8PM ,with our baju kurung and papan rehal, we would tell ghost stories in the class, and later when we wanna go home we would hold each others hands and run coz we scared the ghost will appear out of the rambutan tree. But now kids just go to mengaju with seluar panjang and cardigan (for girls which is so questionable) carrying the holy quran as if it is some kind of histroy text book. It's like going mengaji is something that everyone do it so I have to do it too regardless of what I've learned along the way. Which is rugi lah!

There are so many interesting chapter in our lives but how much have we learned through it?

Chiykenshit

2009-11-25T19:38:00.001+08:00

I memang ada habit hangat-hangat tahi ayam. Hangat I nak ikut skala ,paling cepat sejuk compare to standard hangat tahi ayam international. But at least kalau u instill or boost me with the right words I will rise up again !

Basically I nak cakap we all think we can do better if we're in the position that we are not in, but when we really got the chance to be in the situation ,the planned seems to be changed and kita rasa selamat coz we already in the position. So tunggu dan lihat

**Ada ubat batuk brand LONG PUI KIEW. Cuba cakap laju-laju......hehehe

Milo Mocha

2009-11-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

I hate driving and I hate to think about driving. I hate it so much I make plans for other things. It's the road in KL with the madness of traffic and flooded with vehicles that no matter how well you plan at the end of the day you are the one who have sore feet. So next semester it's either I drive for two months for an A/A- for my industrial training or I study diligently for 4 months with a thin chance of getting A. I'm so at the END of the road with a diverge path. Please drop your opinion weather I should have my industrial training which take me 2hours drive everyday or take another subject for 4 hours per week ?

In the mean time, I hope sambadi is willing to take me for a live music as my soul are draining out of creativity.sambadi.anybadi!

Heads or tail

2009-11-03T19:18:00.002+08:00

It's almost the curtain call for the year 2009 and next year Im'ma hit another number and add up one more candle on the birthday cake. The clock ticking fast and yet there are so many unresolved things. The aberration caused by my own attitude had stalled me from doing lots of plan that I wish I could do.

Is it necessary to make to-do-list or just livee for the day and wait for the excitement comes on the next day? Or everyday is brighter then yesterday at least that's what some people think it will be. As for me to-do-list by the time I hit the BIG 3-0 seems pretty scary to be jotted down. Yes it is a fun thing to do at let your mind wander to beyond imagination what if you could quench your thirst and greeted by the breeze from the ocean, or let the your hair feels the air as you cruising through your BMW, or even have a good time dining with your spouse.

I am not being deniable of what may comes. On the other hand I don't want to pressure myself with the list that I made myself. Clearly I don't agree if you say I fail to plan. But if I were to list all the things I wanna be doing it make me even sadder as I have prepare nothing for my after life. That hit me right in my very core.

Life is about learning experience. If you do not made mistake, you do not even try in the first place. Making plans it everyone expertise but the path in order for us to achieve it is something not many willing to do.

Whatever tomorrow may comes,bring it on. I live by the day and make the full use out of it!

Dia datang...

2009-10-30T09:40:00.012+08:00

Lapar tak from all the studying and reading?

Dear God,
Bless the food on our table.
Keep us healthy,
strong and able.
Ameen :)

Dig deeper

2009-10-29T10:44:00.002+08:00

Whenever there is complex questions and the answers seems so mind boggling, turn to your religion

Last night I dream of driving through a pitch black highway. I could not remember who I was talking to but suddenly there was a flash of light and there were police cones. I don;t know why I pushed the paddle harder and I rammed into a dead body on the side of the road. The scene was horrible,flesh and blood splatter (even in my dream) and we were panicking inside the car. In a gist there was a headless floating legs in (snake shimmering legging,wat?) so I turned over the steering and suddenly I woke up. It was 3 am in the morning. What a dream I figured and head back to sleep. As I was in my slumber, I dream of telling the stories to my friends. NOW I'M NOT SURE WHAT HAPPEN.

Sleeping,exhaustion and exams seems to correlate. Please proof this hypothesis as I always get recurrent dreams :(

"Asyik"

2009-10-26T23:21:00.002+08:00

Dengan bahasa kalimah yang sama
Puji dan memuja
Dilindung dan dibuka
Rahsiakan tetap rahsia

Indah bukan rupa
Harum bukan bunga
Manis bukan gula
Panas bukannya bara
Cintakan tetap cinta

Sejak aku kenali
Cintamu yang suci
Aku telah berjanji
Tak berpaling lagi

Akan aku genggam api
Hingga jadi besi
Dan nyata sebati

Gelap bukan malam
Terang bukan siang
Satu tak terbilang
Hanyut tak terenang
Waktu tak terasa
Rindu tak terkata
Asyiknya cinta

Dan hanya kepadamu
Kuserah jiwa ragaku
Walau berjuta seteru
Tak kuragu

Yeah YOU

2009-10-21T21:21:00.000+08:00

Next time I see you in the hood,Im'ma punch you right in the face

Dream on

2009-10-18T08:19:00.003+08:00

I'm sure a lot of us day dreaming. As I was waiting for my class the other day, my friends and I hang out at this bench and there was an empty floor nearby. My friends were busy talking bout something but I can't help to wander what if I got up and start strutting my stuff. Like I'm so good at dancing people would gather round and who knows others will join in. There was I, breaking and moonwalking, popping and doing some robot's move. I was crazily dancing INSIDE MY HEAD. I guess that's what keep us entertain as a human. We dream to be something that often we can't be. I often think why don;t my parents send me to an art class instead or some other training for me to boost up m confidence. If they do so, I'm sure I'm a lot of better person now. Time may pass by and I love seeing people with talent. It is God given and it's not fair for other people to rip them apart just by saying what is God given is against God himself (u faham tak?Pandai menanyi tapi tak boleh menyanyi atas sebab "alasan" tertentu,geddit?).

For this time on, I won't stop having fun inside my head. I don't care if it kills my brain cells some of ya'll may say,it gives me the sense of acceptance of who I am as an imperfect person.

The chaos continues

2009-10-16T12:51:00.003+08:00

Pictures taken from my room view. It was Tuesday and they were setting up for the tanglung festival.

What;s up for next week? More over due assignments and report to be submitted plus group presentation and the finale ...YEAH B!

OMG II

2009-10-14T19:49:00.002+08:00

Can somebody please give me opinion for outfit to attend concert next week/Should I upload options on what i''m gonna wear and let you vote for it? and OMG LOOK WHAT I FOUND FOR AN AFFORDABLE PRICE! *WEEPS*

Sing-a-long-song

2009-10-10T22:13:00.001+08:00

I wrote this song its not too long
cos Ive been thinking bout you
I wrote this song maybe Im wrong
To be caught up about you

Well I dont know what you think bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see

Oh its a singalong song thats not too long
Its when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

I wrote this song its not too long
Cos I`m the one who loves you
I wrote this song this cant be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you

Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me

Oh its a singalong song that's not too long
Its when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

In every way you mean more to me
than you'll ever know
I'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song and be a perfect harmony with me
Id find the greatest words sing
so we could write our own romance

Oh its a singalong song that's not too long
Its when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

*Banyak berangan la lately* :)

As promised

2009-10-09T22:30:00.006+08:00

Budget nak gempak tapi FAIL!

Venue: La Bodega, Bangsar

It was Sunday and the place already packed around 8pm. This was the first time for me and the second for my parents. We managed to get parking at the back of alley after going around in a circle. Hot women with bald guys and edgy people were already there having smoke,drinking and just enjoying the life of KL. We head up to the lounge. It was the most interesting staircase I have found so far. There was a picture of a lady,seductively wrapped with a satin cloth. She was holding a cigar and a glass of wine I assumed. As I was ascending the staircase, I noticed that she was stripping her clothes one by one, you can imagine there were about 5-6 frames of her stripping one by one until when I reached to the top/lounge, it was just her skin and her cigar with the glass of wine.What an opening!

I was greet with a bar packed with alcohol and jazz music. It wasn't filled with smoke,not yet.There were lots of monochrome pictures. The flow of the lounge was just right. Not too semak with a reading corner (although the light was dimmed). Opposite us were sets of cozy couch,so comfort you could take a nap! The place is right for small group of friends just to have fun before starting the routine of life the next day.

The menu however is not as easy to understood.It was in Spanish and the description is almost a jargon for me. There were lots of tapas instead of taco! I wanted to order the Spanish meal that consists of Spanish rice,chicken,beef and some other rare stuff but it takes about 30-40minutes to prepare. So I just had pasta instead (sebab da kebulor).Which I can 'tremember the name. I had funny taste of drink-almost spicy yet sweet,non alcohol of course. The name could be the epitome of the taste-My X Virgin (is this how sex taste like,funny yet you can't get enough).

Dessert was great as we had something really sweet, Creme Brulle that just neutalized the taste we had before. Complimentary drinks from a guy from the bar counter was also nice. All I heard was some flake in it and the taste just explosive for a coffe addict like me .

All over I gave it a 3 1/2 stars. There's just something lacking on meal and drinks. But will definitely come again if there's time :)

Meanwhile

2009-10-08T03:46:00.000+08:00

Put your head on my shoulder
Hold me in your arms, baby
Squeeze me oh so tight
Show me that you love me too

Put your lips next to mine, dear
Won't you kiss me once, baby
Just a kiss goodnight, maybe
You and I will fall in love

Some people say that love's a game
A game you just can't win
If there's a way
I'll find it someday
And then this fool will rush in

Put your head on my shoulder
Whisper in my ear, baby
Words I want to hear, tell me
Tell me that you love me too

Put your head on my shoulder
Whisper in my ear, baby
Words I want to hear, tell me
Put your head on....my...shoulder

*Missing you there :*

"Update this Friday"

2009-10-08T03:15:00.002+08:00

Cewah budget macam online store pulak

Clutter inside my brain

2009-10-06T07:26:00.002+08:00

I often think about death, but I do nothing to prepare for it. Yet everything about it always being the main reason I believe why I can't enjoy life.

Was on hiatus

2009-10-04T19:14:00.003+08:00

My mother is preparing a wedding gown for her final year project. it will be present on their humble class runaway this end of October. I was excited for her and saving up money so I can get an external flash by then (ikat perut kerenggaku ini). Can you imagine if I were to be her model. Wearing the wedding gown which I have been eyeballing since she bought it from DIY store the other day. But im too young for wedding dress!

Anyway it has been long time since I last posted up my food review .Tonight we are going to La Bodega (I often say La Bogeyl-Bogeyl). Mom already warned me about the rows of online stores that I could be passing by so (jeling dompet kempisku).

*OFCOZ not my dream wedding dress,sebab I nak kawen atas angkasa!*

Diverged from others

2009-09-22T12:01:00.003+08:00

Pinani?

Free hamper from Famous Amos!

Bubble tea :))

"This is the most lazy,quick,confused,awkward,less food consumed yet unbelievable FILTHY amount of duit raya" -Axipedia

Second day of raya,highway to Melaka and Selatan sangat sesak! Drebar muka bengang je sebab passengers lain semua lentok kat belakang macam ayam kena sembelih
Raya tahun lepas pak cik datang bawak video camera je, tahun ni pak cik datang dengan Alpha200 siap dengan external flash
Berapa pak cik beli? rm1500 siap dengan zoom lense. Budak opis tolak sebab lepas setahun "dia boring dengan photography"-BODOHNYA BUDAK TU
Tiap-tiap tahun kucing kat rumah Mak Unggah bertukar,pelik macam mana dia boleh ingat semua nama kucing siap dengan salah-silah keluarga. Rasa macam incest scandal!
Dah time nak beraya, ada yang sampai kecik-kecik hati lama sangat beraya kat rumah saudara-mara. Ini lah raya paling tergesa-gesa pernah ada.
Ikhlas ke mohon maaf? Lepas tu tarik-tarik muka balik?Alahai makcik-makcik

Sorry tahun ni takda gamba raya, pretty much the same as tahun lepas

~Total duit raya you asked? Let just say I will survived shopping till December/Boleh beli lens baru!(Tapi tak kot)

The dynamic duo

2009-09-19T11:42:00.003+08:00

I love spending time with my boyfriend(STATEMENT APAKAH INI?) I love the fact we always have something funny to do. Like yesterday on our way to do our last minute shopping (not for me because I will never have enough), we decided to crank it up a notch with our routine of paying the toll. Instead, we put the rm1.50 into a sampul raya and gave it to the person behind the counter. You should have look at the person's face expression. Confused and happy!...and back to reality (the money not for them). But the FAIL part was, that sampul have my name on it (because I received duit raya from my lecturer earlier that day).But we managed to scratch it off.

On iftar time, we were placed in a table for two inside the restaurant separated by a glass,where you could see the person outside. It is almost as if you were seating next to them only divided by a glass. So as the person talking, we pretended to listen to them and at the same time made a gesture we don't understand what the person talking bout (coz we were separated by the glass,get it?). nasib orang tu tak perasan!

Anyway, I would like to wish all my readers a happy eid,maaf zahir dan batin. Sorry if my writing ada terkias about you ke, I wouldn't know. Have a safe journey balik kampung. Please think bout the less fortunate people and don;t forget to bring GUITAR HERO balik kampung! Bosan la main gasing je :P

"I <neverbeento3 KG"!

Uncomfortable silence

2009-09-18T07:40:00.003+08:00

"If you ain't got nothing nice to say,don't say nothing at all"

Title don't mean that it is the silence you made after you had double cheese burger with onion ring and soda and the person seating next to you in the train smell something funny while you pretending to read the New Gadget magazine. But it could also means the silence in the car when you and your boyfriend just had an argument of why he borrowed his friends money to treat you to a fancy dinner. Uncomfortable silence can also rise from the conversation that the message has been misleadingly interpreted between you and your new date about the word "pure orgasm" when you were just talking about the best rendang you had on hari raya.

Whatever it is, uncomfortable silence gives tiny space to the real comedy of life. The moment you had it, it could be as silence as a grave for few seconds before you change it to a new subject. It could be continued with a guffaws when the inside jokes between your friends started to make sense (i.e how we always fill in our sentence with some part of Rusell Peter's Show Me The Funny line), it is even funnier (or perhaps not) when you go back and think bout what you just had said and you feel insanely stupid about it. Sometimes we think we wanna be funny but all we get is this uncomfortable-silence-time! Even in facebook, the comment that I get/read sound stupid although the person who writes it think it hilarious (or they just have this attitude "im-typing-LOL-but-im-not-laughing").Try being spontaneous as on the real world,I don't think you can!

Well, I had an uncomfortable silence recently when I met my evolutionary lecturer regarding my final year project (searching for conserved microsatellite in a different order of fish is tough job people). So as he was helping me googling the phylogenetic tree of fish, which I'm sure he put it on the search box, A HUGE PICTURE OF TWILIGHT COUPLE ON THE VERGE OF KISSING SHOWED UP! it's the uncomfortable silence people! I made a slight chuckle to get rid of the nervousness . Lucky I was in the lecture hall with my friends at the back. So,you never knew when and who you gonna have this moment with and the best way is to quickly save the situation by a quick gesture.

**Who is that guy in Twilight? Why he is so WHITE? Is vampire real?I read they have found fossils on vampire in Europe. Let's talk bout it :) **

Describe,but make it quick

2009-09-11T19:18:00.002+08:00

Friends come and go and what leaves me is the feeling of envy and gratefulness. Seeing friends travel all around the world to places like India, UK, Indonesia, Ireland, France etc to further their studies leave me with one uncertain answer, when will it be my turn? Although I have been known for my optimistically pessimistic attitude, the thought of someday to further my study in other continent is still in my life vocabulary. As for now, I'll just carry on with my auto-mode life of going to lectures hall, troubleshoot my experimental protocol, enduring the humidity of the country and have a little ignorance of the future that might hold for me.

Yesterday my course mates and I were given a chance to attend a talk from a world renowned scientist from Cameroon. He is working with Malaysia oil palm industry. Standing 6' feet tall, he talked about the experienced of working in Malaysia and the best criteria that fastly picked up by us was he is one humble person, intelligent and hardworking. He talked bout how a scientist is among the poor people in the world but by sharing the brain and giving back to the society is what makes him happy and he takes credit for all his work.

I thought I could be the model of rags to riches someday but at the end I realize whatever that I work with,if it gives me satisfaction and I get to contribute to others,I will not whine. After all, career is something that you do and enjoy and job, only to get paid from something you might loath to death.

Having said that, never have enough contenment so you could push yourself forward :)

**ini bukan cakap kosong hopefully*

Yo! P.O.V

2009-09-02T13:26:00.001+08:00

Must we get a long with our partner's friends? If they come from a circle of friends, it will be fun but what if they are just bunch of people who are totally stranger? Wouldn't yo feel left out?

**is waiting for a comment**

Some word to make it work

2009-08-28T23:16:00.004+08:00

The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you'd make that face you do
There's no-one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can�t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

Twitter

2009-08-23T16:43:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan will be the best time to start twitter-ing. So people will know what kind of scent that linger between my nostrils or the taste that come suddenly into my taste buds that make my saliva secretion increase. Or even tweet everytime my belly make that funny sound.

***

Ramadhan is something to look forward to,especially for ignorant people like me. I'm not pious so for me Ramadhan is a bonus month for me to get as many point as I can catch up with my hectic schedule. But some people just give me this itch of annoying when they started to play lagu hari raya on 2nd day of Ramadhan. Common people!

Maybe I should stop going to the bazaar. Some people seems to look at me as if they have seen me SOMEWHERE once in their life. A guy even mentioned I look like his ex (pick up line pasar malam).

SELAMAT MENERUSKAN PUASA! JGN LUPA DATANG BLOG SAYA!:D

Smoke L while you do me

2009-08-21T20:57:00.004+08:00

*untuk tatapan umum,sila jaga rembesan air liur*

*days of my life*

Apa nih. dah bulan puasa cakap yang bukan2. A month with full of obstacles. I shall endure it calmly.

Worth the wait people, this item is a pre order stuff from Taiwan (ya I don't shop for branded stuff). It took almost a month to reach although at first it was estimated to arrive on 24 Aug but I received it few days ago. After all the overwhelming work, finally something to be smile at when I reached home. Besides my cats :)

P/s:I miss you :)

Come as you are

2009-08-18T20:10:00.004+08:00

Ada "ong"

Takda "ong"

Mati hidup balik, belum tentu I get all the polymorphic band in my DNA samples! Sometimes pipetting error, sometimes it's the PCR mastermix and sometimes it's just not my day. Enough of the lab organized mess, after 2 months of walking everyday (except on weekends), I managed to get into a pair of acid wash skinny jeans! Not just skinny, it is in M size...and loose some more!! How it boost my self confidence! (I use too much of exclamation,OMG!) .Now it's time to look for skinny belt (have you seen the one in brown color with studs?How I love em studs ;)

Supergirl

2009-08-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

Friends always come to me when they are having a bad day . May be it's true what they say bout me, a good listener. I may not give the best advice or I may just smack you right in your face but to hear my self saying all this positive things to my friends when I am being skeptical sometimes,it amazed me. How I wish people will say positive things to me too since most of the time I am overwhelmed with task. It's not that I don;t open up but may be I don;t put the right emotion when I try to convey my feelings. Ah well, it's all a matter of being there as a friend that counts :)

I am supergirl and I'm here to save the world but I wanna know,whose gonna save me

I'll hunt you down

2009-08-15T18:32:00.002+08:00

I have been looking for this even a week before his death and finally I got this in a good material for an affordable price. And yes it is on real shop,not a virtual one. I did registered for SPR today that means I have a chance to cast my vote on the next election. Ain't that right? For those who are going overseas ,please register as your vote counts for us here in Malaysia :)

Permaidani

2009-08-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

Rimbun dan redup kasihMu
Kau tempat ku berpayung
Di manakah lagi dapat ku rebahkan
Rasa gundah ini

Nun Kau teguh di sana
Pengasih dan penyayang
Pun ku masih terleka
Meneguk ihsanMu
Walau ku sedari

Oh... nyamannya
Bila diperlukan rinduMu
Mengimbaulah sentosa

Bentangkan ku permaidani
Dari baldu berwarna putih
Moga tak ku terasakan
Cubaan yang ku galas ini
Kepada Mu titianku
Hijrahkanlah diri ini

*Terima kasih tuhan ,DNA Extraction saya berjaya*Ameen*

Teaser

2009-08-12T15:16:00.003+08:00

Tonight 11pm

Sasha Fierce Vs Nora Zain

2009-08-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

I don't need no beat I can sing it with piano

Not a white lie

2009-08-10T20:15:00.001+08:00

Is it because of a convincing writing, or am I just a good story teller? People are buying my camping stories! It is not like I gave them a white lie. I'll be getting the pictures taken there this Wednesday and hope to share it with you readers :)

My angel :)

2009-08-10T12:26:00.001+08:00

Suatu hari seorang bayi siap untuk dilahirkan ke dunia...

Dia bertanya kepada Tuhan : ' Para malaikat disini mengatakan bahawa besok Engkau akan mengirimkan saya kedunia, tetapi bagaimana cara saya hidup disana; saya begitu kecil dan lemah ?'

Dan Tuhan menjawab: 'Aku telah memilih satu malaikat untukmu. Ia akan menjaga dan mengasihimu '

Bayi bertanya lagi: 'Tetapi disini; didalam syurga ini, apa yang saya lakukan hanyalah bernyanyi, bermain dan tertawa...Inikan sudah cukup bagi saya untuk berbahagia.'

'Malaikatmu akan bernyanyi dan tersenyum untukmu setiap hari. Dan kamu akan merasakan kehangatan cintanya dan menjadi lebih berbahagia'

'Dan bagaimana bisa saya mengerti disaat orang-orang berbicara kepada saya jika saya tidak mengerti bahasa mereka ?'

'Malaikatmu akan berbicara kepadamu dengan bahasa yang paling indah yang pernah kamu dengar; dan dengan penuh kesabaran dan perhatian. Dia akan mengajar kepadamu cara berbicara.'

'Dan apa yang akan saya lakukan saat saya ingin berbicara kepadaMu ?'

'Malaikatmu akan mengajarkan bagaimana cara kamu berdoa'

'Saya mendengar bahawa di Bumi banyak orang jahat. Siapa yang akan melindungi saya ?

'Malaikatmu akan melindungimu; walaupun hal tersebut mungkin akan mengancam jiwanya'

'Tapi, saya pasti akan merasa sedih kerana tidak melihatMu lagi'

'Malaikatmu akan menceritakan kepadamu tentang Aku, dan akan mengajarkan bagaimana agar kamu bisa kembali kepadaKu; walaupun sesungguhnya Aku akan sentiasa disisimu'

Disaat itu, Syurga begitu tenang dan heningnya sehingga suara dari Bumi dapat terdengar, dan sang bayi bertanya perlahan

'Tuhan, jika saya harus pergi sekarang, bisakah Kamu memberitahuku nama malaikat tersebut?'

'Kamu akan memanggil malaikatmu itu: 'IBU '

Ingatlah sentiasa kasih sayang dan pengorbanan ibu. Berbakti, berdoa dan cintailah dia sepanjang masa... Dialah sesatunya harta yang tiada galang gantinya dunia akhirat...

Dan untuk para ibu, ingatlah kisah ini dikala kamu hilang sabar dengan karenah anak-anak yang sedang membesar...sesungguh nya Syurga itu dibawah telapak kakimu...

Sucikanlah 4 hal dengan 4 perkara :

1) Wajahmu dengan linangan air mata keinsafan,

2) Lidahmu basah dengan berzikir kepada Penciptamu,

3) Hatimu takut dan gementar kepada kehebatan Rabbmu, dan dosa-dosa yang silam

4) Di sulami dengan taubat kepada Dzat yang Memiliki mu.'

'Sampaikanlah walau satu ayat'

I can watch you all day long baby

2009-08-08T11:04:00.004+08:00

What's up with me and the long title yo? So used of the FB status update I guess. I found my internet love for real this time :) So rare to find some stranger that can make you smile all day long :*

*Please listen to the song till you get to the chorus*

Buka 8 hari setiap minggu,Tutup hari Ahad

2009-08-07T22:43:00.001+08:00

kenapa kalau orang tu single and available kita jual mahal tapi bila da in a relationship kita tergedik flirt dengan dia?

Massive updates

2009-08-04T20:25:00.002+08:00

Whenever there is camping trip, I will possibly go. Due to hectic schedules and no-fun-kaki to go with,the last camping trip I've been through was in 2002 in Melaka under the National Library.

Last Monday a group of 40students from various faculty that signed up for Kemahiran Berorganisasi got the chance to go for camping. It is for our Ko-k fulfillment. We departed at 830am feeling excited,anxious and curious on what will happen on the two days trip to Ulu Gombak. We arrived around ... (could not remember as I was feeling like throwing up in the bus,the road was like going to Cameron Highlands) .When I first stepped on the ground, a refreshing smell of grass,wet dew on the leaves and the sound of the river greets me. I never knew that kind of place exist before. It is totally isolated from all the hustle and bustle of the cities and it is like balik kampung after so long in the urban area.

The best thing is we were not rush into any kind of activity when we arrived there. Our lecturer (photographer for us) has been very kind for letting us guling2 atas katil and let us enjoy the serene atmosphere. The dorm was cozy with no fan (which let us guessing no more until the night fall).

Just like any other programme, we had ice breaking session and were told to perform that night. And guess who come out with the theme? ME! I called it MALAM SENI RIMBA (later changed to malam suara rimba) and my group have to perform a P.Ramlee songs.

That night went successfully filled with creativity,guffaws,applause from the audience for the loony acts and a great performance from the UM staff (unplugged+stomp). Did I not tell you bout the food? The food was awesome, we had briyani for lunch, dinner was fine too and the supper was a thick chicken soup with bread. The view at night was restricted with a huge tree bark and the cool wind that brushes your skin really gives you goosebumps. I slept well although I woke up twice just to ensure that there wasn't any airconditioner!(seriously it was like sleeping in a hotel with the aircond on 18 degree celcius! )

Day two was the most anticipated one. after muscle stretching and inhaling the most quality oxygen we head on to breakfast to the sweet aroma of NASI LEMAK. At 845am we head down for jungle trekking . We went through slippery and steep road, puddle of mud, team work and the finale was the moment at the waterfall. The water was clean yet icy cold. Walking through the rocks had my thighs a centimeter smaller I hope !

We arrived at UM around 2pm today and the experienced I had is amazing and priceless. Someday I wish to climb gunung,who knew ;)

This is how it looks like

2009-07-25T18:32:00.003+08:00

Imagine the apple is my brain and the little berry is just the task that I have to do cluster into one big bullet

This morning, I woke up
Feeling brand new and I jumped up
Feeling my highs, and my lows
In my soul, and my goals
Just to stop smokin, and stop drinkin
And I've been thinkin - I've got my reasons
Just to get (by), just to get (by)
Just to get (by), just to get (by)

Dear Dumb Diary

2009-07-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

Happy that Dr Subha gave the project title which I already came out with the hypothesis within a day! Thanks to the awesome wifi connection yesterday I spent 6 hours (more or less) studying journals for the up coming experiment. Looking forward for the training from the Australian people also this coming November. Registration has been a pain in the buttom part since system broke down and yes the plan of extending come true, because of one paper! Last night could not sleep thinking bout stepping into the working world. Critically blaming myself for not being marketable enough. Dah la rupa takda, bahasa pun kurang :(

Currently in love with the lyrics from The Script :)

Mimpi masih mimpi

2009-07-09T13:15:00.003+08:00

You have no idea how disappointing it was to know that something you've been wishing to do come knocking into your door step and all you can say is I AM NOT ABLE TO DO IT . But hey maybe I was not born to do such stuff so mimpi masih mimpi. Wake up and smell the cup-oh-cino. For those who are born with pretty legs, lucky you :)

Greetings from C304

2009-07-06T12:32:00.002+08:00

I still have a problem with adjusting myself to strangers.

Yesterday I went back to college to check-in. I've decided to stay with my former roommate, KT,and that left us with one person available since my college place 3 students per room. After browsing through available room, I chose a room with another girl from Sarawak. Little did I know she is an Iban girl. I purposely chose to stay with this girl because she's currently taking TESL which in my mind would be fun since I only mingle with students from the AKADEMI PENGAJIAN MELAYU all this while. So I went to check my room. She was there already with her relatives. They did not even greet nor smile. So I made the effort to shake hands with her aunt. After awhile I broke the silence by introducing myself .I asked if she don't mind staying with Semenanjung girl like me (because I heard people "overseas" don't mingle with people in the West coast). And to my surprise this was her responds

Liana tak kisah ke duduk dengan saya? Saya Christian.

I answered her calmly because if only people knew what my background was, educated in a Methodist and Convent school, I believe that it is nothing wrong as long she doesn't bring any haram food into the room.

I remember a story I heard before I moved to Kuantan and my school was opposite a church, I told my friend in KL about that and they say if I look at the church everyday I will slowly loosing my sight. As I grow up, I tend to accept everyone have their own believe and nothing is wrong to be friended with people from a different religion. Just when I thought she could adjust herself this what happened when my mother enter the room

Hi aunty, saya orang Christian.(elak dari bersalaman,maybe because my mother wear scarf)

Clearly she did not have any idea to represent herself. That is not what you say when you first meeting people. What is wrong with her being Christian staying with us the muslim. I hope I'm not making a big deal out of this but it just an experienced I just got to share. I have a friend who is a freethinker/atheist (although I wish I could meet with someone from Scientology) but to just mentioned like that to someone you just met it's not necessary. After all my mom doesn't mind AT ALL if she's not used to shake hands but memadailah dengan beri senyuman.

At this very age, it is alright for me to mix with other races because I know my faith and my kiblat. Don't be narrow minded to think that religion will be a barrier for you to stay under one roof.

My late uncle was a Christian and convert to Islam when he married my aunt. His brother is a pious man of Catholic church yet they stay under one roof until my uncle passed away. To add to up, my uncle's son is a tabligh who still have his electric guitar in his room. You tell me, who is interesting now?

I am mad at me

2009-07-04T19:51:00.002+08:00

What a coward I am. When critics hit me by a person closed to me, I always ditch them. Although some bits of it left in my memory, I never take an effort to understand them and THUS to make myself better. I will walked away proudly and keep on continue with the same mistakes when at the end of the road, the person that I love will come patiently and pick me up and dust myself out of the dirt. All I can do to is to say sorry (through sms or email) without confronting them face to face. Next time I blurt something disrespectful,I need to remind my self that it have nothing to do with the person in front of me but it is only wrath of stink breath of my mouth with those hurtful words.

For you (I am sorry from the bottom of my heart) .Your constructive critics and praises is the most sincere in this world and I am grateful to have YOU <3

Of tears and Transformers

2009-06-28T00:50:00.002+08:00

I never really care about the news of Michael Jackson after his trial. I think people ought to leave him alone. Just like Britney Spears who deserves to be alone to sort things out but last Friday I was awaken by my father's SMS saying the death of the legendary King Of Pop. It was utter shocking for someone who has been growing up listening to his songs, collecting his LIVE Concert video tape and remembering the lyrics. He was one in a million. Just like any other world class entertainer like Frank Sinatra and Bob Marley, he will always be remembered.

So on our way to watch The Transformers today my dad put on his songs on the radio. It was just like the old days where I could remember his moves, his shyness during interview, and his different personalities on the stage. But the moment strike me real bad when it comes to the song "You are not alone". Tears star to burst out of my ducts and I was heavily controlling my emotion to ensure my parents don;t caught me sobbing. I think I love Michael Jackson and this is truly the biggest lost in the music industry. Everyone times will come and death is inevitable.

For Michael Jackson, although he might a bit quirky but I am sure deep in his heart core, he has a strong resolution to unite every of our kind . To Michael Jackson the King Of Pop, you will always be remembered.

"And who gave you the right to scare my family?
And who gave you the right to shame my baby? She needs me!
And who gave you the right to shake my fablic tree?

They put a knife in my back
Shot an arrow in me
Tell me are you the ghost of jealousy"

Cerita lama juga

2009-06-21T09:53:00.002+08:00

I used to like someone back in high school but he's a jerk. We lost contact for some years and now we're back again. But the table has turned when he seemed to be...into me. I don't mean to bask in glory but I think now he realized how awesome I am personally (laughing my double-chin off) . Howevahhhh...I think I got a crush on him again. Whose a jerk now! Is it normal for a person like me whose been in a relationship to have a crush again? Ow-wee

Kajang hamba hanyalah mengkuang layu
Masakan kau sudi beradu
Memang jelas kata orang
kalau sayang
pandang-pandang
Kalau benci sama lah dengan aku
memang aku ,kau tak mahu

Prank-2-you

2009-06-18T22:24:00.004+08:00

I always wanted to write something serious and meaningful that could linger and stuck inside the readers mind,yet I could not find any. Perhaps I did not do a lot of reading lately thus besides coup de tat that occured, nuclear weapons and more political crap. If I were to talk about observation, I am not at the right state of mind to be telling you what's right and what's wrong. May be it is better for me to leave you with the video to cheer you up :)

Happy Hour

2009-06-18T14:10:00.001+08:00

YAY WORTH THE WAIT! SHOPAHOLIC (MORE LIKE SHOE FETISH) HAPPY HOUR! IN THE LAB ,STILL HAVE TIME TO UPDATE ;)) I LALAV YOU :*

Warkah buat kekasih

2009-06-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

Mencorak bintang menjadi kerongsang ku tak berdaya

Kerna nyata ku tak sehebat dia bermain kata

Memintal buih menjadi ranjang ku tak berdaya

Kerna aku tahu imaginasiku ada batasnya

Kekasih jangan pula engkau

Menolak warkah cintaku yang tak bermaya

Kekasih harap kau terima warkah cintaku

Yang biasa tiada berbunga

Namun begitu izinkan aku menghibur jiwamu

Dengan kata-kata yang sederhana

Aku bukannya sasterawan negara

Aku hanya manusia biasa

Menulis sekadar untuk meluah rasa jiwa

Maaf jika kutak sepeka dia

Tak mampu menganyam awan gemawan

Menjadikannya selendang untukmu

Oh kekasih

Tiba-tiba

2009-06-14T16:06:00.004+08:00

What is up with me? I see things in a different way. Lately all the pretty girls I've seen seems to be like a drag queen. Everyone comment-ed on how pretty she is but why do I see something is wrong? Could be my laptop resolution?

Kekasihku di menara

2009-06-13T01:09:00.001+08:00

Dingin sungguh malam ini
dan sukar mataku lelapkan
lalu ku cuba coretkan
sekeping lembaran untukmu

Tidak terkira perutusan
satupun tiada balasan
namunku tak putus harapan
walau hati ini sudah mula bergoyang

Dapat ku bayangkan
kau mula berubah
bila di puncak menara gading
sedangkan aku hanya mampu bermimpi
untuk ke puncak seperti mu

Disebabkan itu
kau mencipta jurang
perhubungan kita
mula menjadi renggang

Dan ke angkuhanmu
kini mula ketara
memandang aku cuma sebelah mata

Dulu aku bagimu
jambatan untuk kau ke seberang
mudah sungguh jau lupakan
semua jasa-jasa ku
semua pengorbananku
untukmu

3Dimensional yet untouchable

2009-06-12T09:31:00.004+08:00

I mean this
NOT this!

I know the future of hologram will soon be true. It is distinct but yet unclear. I don't want to say it's unpredictable but with technology and funding it can be applied someday. Yesterday we went out to watch ALIENS VS MONSTER in 3D . Although I was skeptical at first about the movie despite paying rm17, it turned out to be a fun experience. We were given a special anti-theft (means you cant bring it home,sigh) glasses that made me look like lady gaga! However since adult have a bigger degree of sight compare to kids, I don't get the same effect of the 3D just like when I was little yet the impact was still there. There a few candid moment that I think were meant for 3D viewing ,you could fill it as if it is penetrating your eyes. Not suggesting for those who have a neuron problem though. The story line was interesting, if you don't make it complicated as an adult. The most vital part is the awesomeness of colors, every minute detail of grass and rocks,wind that went through the monster's hair, the shinny scales, the moving antenna, every single hair flip as the wind gushed in,the psychedelic outer space.Maybe some of the joke were purposely meant for the non-kids viewer especially the character of BOB played by Seth Rogen! Let's sum it up, its a whole new movie experience with 3D that I don't get with my HD TV :D

Like you know like omg!

2009-06-10T22:03:00.003+08:00

I love the video, I met people like this, they sound so-wanna-fit-in, and I like watching em, Pointless-loud-high-peach talk :D

Diary of a nerd

2009-06-10T00:03:00.004+08:00

Currently scoring for my DNA bands, unreliable results totally but it's been a working experience. Yet this is something vital ,no room for error but again it's an experiment for crying out loud, who to determine if it is right or wrong . But my hunch saying I should have done better if only I do more homework. Whose bad?

Pura-pura bahagia

2009-06-08T20:16:00.003+08:00

" Darling it won't be unfair,

to stay with something no longer there

it's not that I have no longer care,

I feel like a burden you cannot bare"

Co-co-mel

2009-06-08T10:37:00.002+08:00

*sorry for the sloppy ending though ;)) *

Real quick

2009-06-07T09:25:00.005+08:00

Currently working on AlphaImager 2200, a software that allow me to know my band size following my pcr product on the gel electrophoresis. So far I have only 2-4 good pictures of the DNA bands. That was only after dilution of my 30 samples. My current worry after browsing through gel electrophoresis troubleshooting would be degradation of DNA samples. With only few weeks left and data analysis to be done, I really hope I can finish on time.

This is the result of my optimization of primer from Australia. In order to test it to my local samples of C.striata, I have to optimize the primer according to different temperature to see which temperature it works the best. From the result my most intense bands showed that it works best at T 55. The middle lane is my DNA ladder of 20bp. It is an indicator what my DNA band molecular weight are. After optimization I used all 8 of my primers on the local samples. Due to DNA degradation ,DNA slippage or even null allele, my results are not accurate .This is an example of Kedah population.

Jangan la cucuk bang

2009-06-06T19:37:00.003+08:00

Orang kadang2 tak paham the idea of lorong khas belah kanan, untuk pemanduan lebih selesa dan cepat. Tapi kebanyakan kereta malaysia dengan lambang kemegahan merah dan kuning (bukan McD, faham2 la kan) bawak 60km/j .Orang nak cepat ko bersiar plak. Lain kali kalau nak amek angin jangan la lalu time peak hour brother.

Saya nak ni, tolong la,ayah :(

Ideologi politik jamban

2009-06-03T20:44:00.002+08:00

A month ago when I google on Satu Malaysia topic, nothing positive came out as a result. Instead responses that I got was mainly on the opposition parties saying it was an idea plagiarized by our new PM. They claimed that it was an idea of a man who long ago have mentioned it but it was neglected. Until this day I am not sure what is One Malaysia is all about. When I checked out the official website,the explanation was simple yet not concrete enough to feed my curiosity. I had also came across headlines regarding One Malaysia on how the ministry wanted the concept to be apply to the people. It got me thinking, what happened to Wawasan 2020? We only have 11 years to go but the vision seems to fade away. The government cannot curb the rising criminal activities, the economy are unpredictable although the Malays have some air to breathe compare to our ancestors, the youth that I observed do not have patriotism and high moral values. On the other hand ,I feel proud and honored to see those who put knowledge,education, creativity and strong will to improve their life. The concept of One Malaysia is in Wawasan 2020. Besides it is the main objectives of the vision but why after a decade the rakyat have to be introduced into a new policy and idea? Jangan dikejar tak dapat ,yangdikendong berciciran. Or could be the Wawasan 2020 have evolved to One Malaysia within this period of 10 years? Whatever it is,this is our country and the people have to face the thunder and storm together ,united we stand. Despite the ethnicity,colors and creed, we should realized this is the land of ours that need our unconditional love and protection.

Hypochondriac

2009-06-02T20:36:00.003+08:00

I'm using the same path everyday and I noticed that KL in haze lately. If only I have an environment vacuum to suck up all the dust. Some kind of HEPA filter ,filtering all unwanted particles that harmful to me and others. Not just being exposed to this hazy condition but I'm also dealing with a cancer-causing reagent daily. Just when you thought you have enough sins to destroy your life I have a distinct reason for my death. But instead of over thinking it I believe that god will protect me. I have never been so "pious" or articulate in works before but after been given a responsibility I have been a more alert and discipline individual lately. I thank my attitude for being flexible :)

For those who did't get my video previously it doesnt matter, all I know it gives me the sense of falling to no where land for 10 minutes? (Approximately). Im'ma share my hallucination with you on the next video >)

Trippy Mushie!

2009-06-01T19:48:00.002+08:00

Get high with technology

2009-05-30T21:31:00.009+08:00

FINALLY AFTER ALMOST A MONTH I GOT POLYMORPHIC BANDS! TQ GOD

**I cant seems to upload very interesting video I found, will keep on trying**

Did you notice I'm happy lately

2009-05-30T10:02:00.002+08:00

Fullhouse@NZX 1st food review

2009-05-27T22:38:00.004+08:00

Today is my best friend's birthday and she was so kind to treat us at this new place in PJ. I'm not a Pj-ian so I didn't notice the route taken by her. The taste was authentic with a cozy ambience. A perfect place for date because of it's romantic set up, a cool place to hang out because the store offer affordable food and fancy stuff from Korea, a little like the ROOM for those who familiar with that kind of idea. All and all I rated it 9/10 because it was burning hot outside and yet place feel warm (air cond went wrong I guess).

The taste like I mentioned before was authentic, I ordered a roasted chicken tenderloins which consists of daily vege, mash potato that and just the right taste of tomato sauce(and of course chicken terderloins). A little bit of sweet and sour just enough ,it does not make your eyes squint but the combination of all explodes inside your mouth. The shop also offer fashion and trends from Korea but I did'nt get any of the price tags but most of the items can be found at Sg Wang.

The beverages was another story. I had blueberry soda pop with peppermint, a compilation that really quench your thirst. I am not sure what they put inside my drinks but there's this jelly like stuff that when it pop on your mouth it gives out a goo-ey, sticky, funny and very sweet taste of blueberry I guess.

I'm looking forward for my next food review :)

Toxic

2009-05-27T08:26:00.000+08:00

8 toxic personalities

1. Manipulative Mary: These individuals are experts at manipulation tactics. Is a matter of fact, you may not even realize you have been manipulated until it is too late. These individuals figure out what your 'buttons' are, and push them to get what they want.

Why they are toxic: These people have a way of eating away at your belief system and self-esteem. They find ways to make you do things that you don't necessarily want to do and before you know it, you lose your sense of identity, your personal priorities and your ability to see the reality of the situation. The world all of a sudden becomes centered around their needs and their priorities.

2. Narcissistic Nancy: These people have an extreme sense of self-importance and believe that the world revolves around them. They are often not as sly as the Manipulative Marys of the world, but instead, tend to be a bit overt about getting their needs met. You often want to say to them "It isn't always about you."

Why they are toxic: They are solely focused on their needs, leaving your needs in the dust. You are left disappointed and unfulfilled. Further, they zap your energy by getting you to focus so much on them, that you have nothing left for yourself.

3. Debbie Downers: These people can't appreciate the positive in life. If you tell them that it is a beautiful day, they will tell you about the impending dreary forecast. If you tell them you aced a mid-term, they'll tell you about how difficult the final is going to be.

Why they are toxic: They take the joy out of everything. Your rosy outlook on life continues to get squashed with negativity. Before you know it, their negativity consumes you and you start looking at things with gray colored glasses yourself.

4. Judgmental Jims: When you see things as cute and quirky, they see things as strange and unattractive. If you find people's unique perspectives refreshing, they find them 'wrong'. If you like someone's eclectic taste, they find it 'disturbing' or 'bad'.

Why they are toxic: Judgmental people are much like Debbie Downers. In a world where freedom rings, judgment is sooo over. If the world was a homogeneous place, life would be pretty boring. Spending a lot of time with these types can inadvertently convert you into a judgmental person as well.

5. Dream Killing Keiths: Every time you have an idea, these people tell you why you can't do it. As you achieve, they try to pull you down. As you dream, they are the first to tell you it is impossible.

Why they are toxic: These people are stuck in what is instead of what could be. Further, these individuals eat away at your self-esteem and your belief in yourself. Progress and change can only occur from doing new things and innovating, dreaming the impossible and reaching for the stars.

6. Insincere Illissas: You never quite feel that these people are being sincere. You tell a funny story, they give you a polite laugh. You feel depressed and sad and they give you a 'there, there' type response. You tell them you are excited about something and you get a very ho-hum response.

Why they are toxic: People who aren't sincere or genuine build relationships on superficial criteria. This breeds shallow, meaningless relationships. When you are really in need of a friend, they won't be there. When you really need constructive criticism, they would rather tell you that you are great the way you are. When you need support, they would rather see you fail or make a fool of yourself.

7. Disrespectful Dannys: These people will say or do things at the most inappropriate times and in the most inappropriate ways. In essence, they are more subtle, grown up bullies. Maybe this person is a friend who you confided in and uses your secret against you. Maybe it is a family member who puts their busy-body nose into your affairs when it is none of their business. Or maybe, it is a colleague who says demeaning things to you.

Why they are toxic: These people have no sense of boundaries and don't respect your feelings or, for that matter, your privacy. These people will cause you to feel frustrated and disrespected.

8. Never Enough Nellies: You can never give enough to these people to make them happy. They take you for granted and have unrealistic expectations of you. They find ways to continually fault you and never take responsibility for anything themselves.

Why they are toxic: You will spend so much time trying to please them, that you will end up losing yourself in the process. They will require all of your time and energy, leaving you worn out and your own needs sacrificed.

All of these personalities have several things in common. 1) the more these people get away with their behavior, the more they will continue. 2) Unfortunately, most of these people don't see that what they do is wrong and as a result, talking to them about it will fall on deaf ears, leaving you wondering if you are the crazy one. 3) Most of these people get worse with age, making their impact on you stronger with time.

Frankly, life is too short to spend your time dealing with toxicity. If you can, avoid spending mucho time with people who are indicative of these behaviors and you'll feel a lot happier. Have you encountered these personalities? What have you done? Any personalities you would add?

Corazon Espinado

2009-05-25T20:55:00.004+08:00

*I love this song since forever*

I tell you how I do it son

2009-05-24T09:15:00.006+08:00

*click to enlarge*

*my favourite of 'em all, just put a slight pressure of your palm and it will rotate,as if you have a superpower to move things :) *

These are some of the inexplicable experienced I got during my two weeks as lab assistant. Most of the time I don't have my fancy camera so my phone camera being the eye witness :) From shopaholic to workaholic, it's a transition for me and I'm impressed by my agility to have fun and gain knowledge at the same time. It's a place where I feel accepted. I don;t have to worry about what other's up to on facebook and envying their great times knowing I had found mine.

Kuala Bosan

2009-05-17T12:02:00.003+08:00

Hye its me again. Dropping by just to let you know I will be with you for a moment. I know you're not glad with me being around you but I'm here for good. You could find creativity and inspiration while I'm sitting here chilling eating your brain cells. I know you have lots of plans but too sad it will only end in a dumpster. So instead of feeling tired just let me accompany you for a while. I promise I wont be here for too long ,unless you welcome me again

Love,
Boredom

Title: Title: Title :p

2009-05-17T10:41:00.005+08:00

01. Who was your last text from?
-Yak Fahmi

2. Where was your default picture taken?
-College

03. Your relationship status?
-On leash

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
-Yes

05. What is your current mood?
-Bored

06. How many siblings do you have?
-0

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
-

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
-On the street ,taking photographs

09. Have a crazy side?
-Yes and it's tiring

10. Ever had a near death experience?
-Yes

11. Something you do a lot?
-texting, shoe shopping, surfing the net

12. Angry at anyone?
-No

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
-Low self esteem

14. When was the last time you cried?
-Watching The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
-My family and cats

16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
-We are human, give ourselves a break

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-My mom

18. What is your favorite song?
-One by Mary J Blige

19. What are you doing right now?
-Multitasking

20. Who do you trust right now?
-No body

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
-Jusco Wangsa Maju

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
-yes

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
-None

24. Describe your life in one word?
-Exciting and sabotaging

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
-Sheila,shairil and Tim

26. What should you be doing right now?
-Multitasking

27. What are you listening to?
-Sorry for the stupid things-babyface

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
-None

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
-No but I tend to be bragging. Oh so not cool

31. What is your natural hair color?
-Black! Gross kan?

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
-TV Show

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
-Money

34. What do you hear?
-Marching Band Medley-next song after babyface

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
-Curl-strai!

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
-People dont talk English around here

37. Do you have a best friend?
-yes and I miss them

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
-No

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
-A lot and it irritate me sometimes, Im sorry fo those people in YM & MSN

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
-No but Ive seen once!

41. Are you happy with life right now?
-Content

42. Are you currently jealous?
-Yes yes yes

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
- -

44. What were you doing on friday night?
-Doozing off

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
-Everytime Im not happy with my results knowing Ive put effort on it

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
-My parents,yes

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
-Malaysia government and my university administration

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
-Diarrhea

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
-Boring weekend, went off to bed at 10pm

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
-No

How come how long

2009-05-15T22:05:00.004+08:00

There was a girl I used to know

She was oh so beautiful
But she's not here anymore
She had a college degree
Smart as anyone could be
She had so much to live for
But she fell in love
With the wrong kinda man
He abused her love and treated her so bad
There was not enough education in her world
That could save the life of this little girl

How come, how long
It's not right, it's so wrong
Do we let it just go on
Turn our backs and carry on
Wake up, for it's too late
Right now, we can't wait
She won't have a second try
Open up your hearts
As well as your eyes

She tried to give a cry for help
She even blamed things on herself
But no one came to her aid
Nothing was wrong as far as we could tell
That's what we'd like to tell ourselves
But no, it wasn't that way
So she fell in love
With the wrong kinda man
And she paid with her life
For loving that man
So we cannot ignore
We must look for the signs
And maybe next time
We might save somebody's life

[HOOK]

I on occasion met that guy
He stirred up bad feelings deep inside
Something about him wasn't right
The way he proves himself a man
By beatin' his woman with his hands
Oh I wish she'd seen the light
How can someone like that
Call himself a man
In reality he's far more less than that
And we cannot ignore
Whenever we see the signs
'Cause any kinda of abuse
God knows isn't right

**So many things I wanna write here but my priority is to have a rest. Lab has been interesting from day one. Full of anticipation, excitation and priceless learning and working experience. Lab members have been really helpful, smart and intelligent to name few.

This song has been one of my favorite since I was in high school but a few days ago I found it back and it is on my play list. I'll upload pics Ive taken during my lab hours later :)

I submit to yo demand

2009-05-12T20:07:00.003+08:00

Have you ever listen to a song and wish a special someone would have sing it to you? he/she could the person you admire from a far, your crush or even your significant other? No wonder girls always looking for musician or an artist with the hope that they'll put them to sleep with love songs,lullaby and tender kisses. But do they really exists?

Last night i
I saw you standing
I started
Started pretending
I knew you
You knew me too
And just like a roni you were too shy
But you weren't the only one, so was i
And i dreamed of you ever since
Now i build up my confidence
Ooh, next
Next time you come my way
I'll know just what to say

Can we talk for a minute
Girl i want to know your name
Can we talk for a minute
Girl i want to know your name

I started to write you letters
But i wanted to be more clever
I wanted to get down and sweet talk you
Hey, baby
But just like a baby i could not talk
And i tried to come closer but could not walk
And i think of it every night
How i just could not get it right
Oh, if we ever come close again
I know what i'll say then

Hook

Oh, girl
One more chance
With you again
I will not let it go
Oh, ooh please
Give me just one more chance
For love, love, love, love

**For you, I wish you would have swept me off my feet, but Im with someone else now , I watched you drifted away from my life, Goodbye

YOU

2009-05-10T20:55:00.001+08:00

TQ for the sweet taste you leaved on my tongue

Out of the Smokey

2009-05-08T10:32:00.001+08:00

People say I'm the life of the party
'Cause I tell a joke or two
Although I might be laughing loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue

So take a good look at my face
You know my smile looks out of place
If you look closer it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears

I need you...
Need you

Since you left me if you see me with another guy
Looking like I'm having fun
Although he may be cute, he's just a substitute
'Cause you're the permanent one

So take a good look at my face
You know my smile looks out of place
If you look closer it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears

Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
I'm just a clown since you put me down
My smile is my make up
I wear since my break-up with you

Baby, take a good look at my face
You know my smile looks out of place
If you look closer it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears

For every lust that Ive touched

2009-05-07T17:17:00.002+08:00

**CD4 Depletion is the hallmark of AIDS. It takes around 8 years depending on individual to show the symptoms. Currently there is no vaccine for HIV**

Checkin into REHAB

2009-05-07T10:33:00.006+08:00

Unlike some addicts, I admit my obsession and addiction over blogshoppings. To know if you're having a problem is to admit one. I've been introduced by e-shopping back in early 2008 by a friend who live in an isolated island-Cyberjaya and ever since I am not tired of clicking and browsing from time to time. They were even a time I bought an item everyday for a week. That is when I realized I got OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). They call it impulse buy and there are even clothes I bought for trying purpose only. But for heavenly sake I have never bring the Elle magazines posses and uploaded it FB or MyS, pathetic!

I overcome my "impulse-buy" syndrome by telling myself how lucky I am to be wearing all this clothes and flaunt it while they were some others who only wear torn pagoda or selipar jepun. I over analyzed myself to the point I feel like sending my clothes (in good condition) to orphanage but I still have yet to find the right way for it. Unlike recycling bin where you can find it at the most common places.

The chances of spending time in front of the blogshops will soon decline after my lecturer unofficially announced me as her industrial training students. I did not apply for l.i this semester because of my CGPA but god's willing I will be working with a team of masters students who's sitting on a goldmine!(Fortunately,they come across new things when they actually looking for other things). So I have been signed to one of the senior master's student there that working on micro satellite for ikan haruan. Excited and nervous since I have to do my own PCR and fragment analyzer protocol but then again I'm here to learn as mush as possible within this two months and hopefully I;m ready for my next semester final year project.

Population genetics have not been my cup of tea since I'm interested in immunological research but thank you again to my lecturer for giving me this opportunity. This is what we called destiny. Earlier this semester I got F for one of my core subjects restricting me to sign up for l.i and yet I still have the chance to mingle with this creme of the crops from Genetics Department.

**Lab is near to Jaya One where they will be organizing offline shops every weekend ^^v **

Big fat mouth

2009-05-05T21:51:00.004+08:00

Asal mulut lebar je macam muka liana. Yela mulut lebar ada manfaat, kuat makan :)

*some of the faces that I'm connected with*

*Pandai-pandai la google siapa orang2 sederhana ni *

Object of my crave

2009-05-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

More to come.............HAPPY!!!!!

One Two Die !

2009-05-03T07:28:00.005+08:00

Susahnya paper Immunology yesterday. Bersedialah untuk tertungging. Since my roomates have done with this semester I decided to pack my bags and headed home because I know that room will turned up into chaotic mess with guffaws and annoying giggle. I still have one more paper to go and although we're planning to attend the PIPIT event today but it seems studies are more important after a series of basic math and algebra minus chemical reaction on a draft paper,I will (again) screw up this semester. Bersedialah untuk meringkuk dalam my own pessimistic world.

Friends we're talking bout my eye bags and how not-gaunt I look lately. I can't sleep well, when there noise up till the wee hour in the morning. When I finally off to dreamland, I always had the same repetitive dream bout sea, flying and fighting. It's like I carry almost all of my energy into my dreams and when I finally woke up I feel even tired. Yesterday I had this funny dream of being befriended with Fazura! (Fazura is one of my favourite Malay actor). So we went to this kedai mamak to order some food and guess what I ordered (the best part is I remember until now)...MAMAK,NASI GORENG TAKNAK GORENG 1! Maybe this is due to the fact that I always mix and match my food on the menu but this up here memang totally absurd! Takkan mamak nak rebus nasi kot LOL. Being a freak I am, I even google-ed the meaning of my dreams! (Couple of times though) .

To dream that you are cutting you're hair, suggest that you are experiencing a loss in strength. You are feelin that someone is trying to censor you. Alternatively you may be reshaping your thinking or ambitions an eliminating unwanted thoughts/habit

Bila pulak I will get wet dreams? Hahaha! Eh apa ni my itallic tak berubah. *Sigh*

Desperado

2009-05-01T10:22:00.004+08:00

Tolongla jangan percaya apa you tgk kat internet unless you are used to it like clothes material and gadgets. JANGAN mudah TERTIPU ;)) Perempuan menipu, lelaki tertipu and vice versa. BUT I like how it keeps us going and give us false hope

My pet peeves

2009-04-30T15:03:00.008+08:00

If I am to list my pet peeves it will be

People talk so loud as if the person they talked to were in another room, while I'm concentrating on my studies because I have exam at 830am
A girl who don't shaves her armpit for couple of months and wear sleeveless tops with kain batik
Individual who only complaints without making any effort, just whinning
A 15-minutes fame from music factory, and leave the younger kids goes crazy but after few years the performer gone with the wind (Remember the afro guy from Australia yg suara sedap tu)
Talking when my eyes are glued to the television...you know my ears too so why are you talking to me still?
Individual who are not breed and raised in KL and knows selok belok KL
Last but not least, lelaki berambut hitam, blonde campuran tak ubah ayam serama dan mempunya lebihan rambut panjang di panggil "ekor rambut" ...da mcm akar tunjang LMA O!

BUT if you were to be someone close to me, living under one roof, your list of pet peeves COULD be :-

My level of laughter:from chuckling to giggle to LOL when Im watching my series of SCRUB ;))
The fact that I'm studious
I have messy table ,it almost an eyesore but it's the definition of ART
I talked in English on the phone so you dont really understand what Im saying, especially if you dont come from the Science background
I malas mandi hahaha! Yeah I bathe twice a day even the hotness reach 110 degree
I have a terrible mood swings, I can remain silence and throw tantrums if you annoy me by not being discipline (but this occur only once in a blue moon,mostly I blast internally)
I rap (out loud) occasionally, so....yeah :))
Last but not least,LIANA DON'T SHARE FOOD

I,die,a little,inside

2009-04-28T19:26:00.003+08:00

I don't mean to be the person who surrounded by pessimistic attitude but I think my live revolves around negative thinking. I get annoyed exponentially , I judge people easily and mostly I'm selfish towards myself. I don't understand the meaning of adult that I'm enduring through. I wish someone would remind me when to stop. I have no self control. I do as I pleased to see how far I could go. I don't wanna leave a bleak future because of my gluttony, pride and most of all I don't wanna loose my composure. I talked through this with my parents actually. I swallowed all the nervous feelings and talked to them on how I wish to be guided through my tertiary level and daily live but their answer disappoint me. " Dah besar takkan tak boleh handle fikir mana elok mana tak". Yes I am different physically and mentally compared to 10 years ago but that doesn't mean all of my steps are taken through my rationality. I'm not saying I can't think properly but I really wish someone would let me know what I've done wrong that I'm able to take it as a constructive critique. I'm easily influenced and my curiosity sometimes outweighs the reality. So please talk me through. I'm willing to listen :)

In the end you end up alone

2009-04-24T19:25:00.003+08:00

I perasan banyak cicak kat Za'ba ni, lebih2 tepi tingkap shower room. Kalau dia boleh bercakap mesti malu kitorang.
Driver kat sini yang mostly students, setakat kereta mak ayah bayar (including me) tak payah la nak berlagak. Potong que la, cucuk2 la, I pun nak cepat balik so I can rest my weary head, bukan mcm korang yg berlagak drebar handal bila gadish kat sebelah
Macam-macam ragam lepas exam, ada yang suram, ada yang gelak dan tak lupa ada yang rambutnya straighten (lelaki pulak tu, dah mcm mop carrefour)
Why am I being judgemental? because the treat of others towards me. Sunyi dalam kebisingan orang ramai when at the end I realized I have a circle of friends yang way interesting than the group of friends I met here
Im not jealous but I have stereotype mind
Pengawas exam tadi lawa-lawa dan hensem2, terima kasih Seksyen Peperiksaan :)
Lastly, hensem kan template baru I, cuma dalam bahasa kita kurang fasih, tapi sexy. Archivo del alfonso marqueqe gonzalas de amor soprano
Hari tu I tanya dia, does oxygen available in heaven, dia kata mesti lah . Tapi I nak tanya lagi, do we evolved when we reached heaven in order to adapt to our immortality? U jawab tau!

MAXI DRESS FOR SALE

2009-04-22T19:22:00.004+08:00

Im selling off my maxi dress (satin material) for rm 45 only including postage. Pls visit http://shoppinggazebo.blogspot.com. Item never been worn except for trying purpose :)

Overkill

2009-04-21T22:24:00.003+08:00

Lately I found songs describe me well, it's not that Im draining out of idea to blog or my self-thought-monologue run profusely to blank hole but right now it seems I can relate it to songs that I listen to, more or less

I cant get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alright
Perahaps its just my imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
Its time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least theres pretty lights
And though theres little variation
It nullifies the night
From overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Fierce!

2009-04-20T13:25:00.002+08:00

How will you choose your Mr Right?

You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church.

Who will be your future Mr Right?

Your future hubby will be lovely and sweet, but a little immature - possibly even a spoilt brat! This guy will trigger your maternal instinct. You'll always be willing to watch his back and clean up his mess. He might be the same age as you are or even younger.

When will you get married?

You will be very determined and thorough in choosing a spouse. You'll study every detail about your man before saying yes to a life of love. You will eventually make a good choice, but you'd better be sure that he's willing to wait that long.

What sort of wife will you be?

You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man.

Will you and your husband have a good time together?

You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.

What will your children be like?

Your kids will be quiet and won't give you a hard time - they'll be a joy to have around. However, you should teach them to be stronger and more confident in themselves. Otherwise they might grow up to be losers.

How loyal are you?

You are a cool chick! You pretend not to care about the many men you attract, but they just keep coming back for more. When you are married, you won't be a loyal kind.

Buy me a rose :)

2009-04-18T11:09:00.000+08:00

He works hard to give her all he thinks she wants
A three car garage, her own credit cards
He pulls in late to wake her up with a kiss good night
If he could only read her mind, shed say:

Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life

Now the days have grown to years of feeling all alone
And she cant help but wonder what shes doing wrong
Cause lately shed try anything to turn his head
Would it make a difference if she said:

Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life

And the more that he lives the less that he tries
To show her the love that he hold inside
And the more that she gives the more that he sees
This is a story of you and me

So I bought you a rose on the way home from work
Opened the door to a heart that I hurt
And I hope you notice this look in my eyes
Cause Im gonna make things right
Im gonna hold you tonight
Do all those little things
For the rest of your life.

I <3 you org yang jauh di mata :)

King Of Sorrow

2009-04-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

I'm crying everyone's tears And there inside our private war I died the night before And all of these remnants of joy and disaster What am I suppose to do I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul But nothing would change, nothing would change at all It's just a day that brings it all about Just another day and nothing's any good The DJ's playing the same song I have so much to do I have to carry on I wonder if this grief will ever let me go I feel like I am the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow
I suppose I could just walk away Will I disappoint my future if I stay It's just a day that brings it all about Just another day and nothing's any good

*One of those day where your work act relentless towards you and you are grasp by kejiwangan :) *